One True Thing

Ok, so this will now be the second blog of the week.

Impressive if I do say so myself.

First comment already and I just want to say thanks for making me feel welcomed.

Now I have edited my first blog twice now, once to removed a statement I made that lead to a very long and interesting conversation with my wife, and one to take out the word psycho from my title. Decided I don't need people thinking I have the stalker quality to me, nor do I need them to think that I need some kind of mental help. (granted, my cycling long distances has my parents really questioning my sanity.)

I am not much of a political person nor am I much into not saying what I mean. The long and interesting conversation with my wife was in regards to the words "my choice". Now taken on the normal sense, it means you chose not to do drugs or such. You chose to buy a Ford not a Honda. You chose to eat your steak well done and not raw.

In the gay community, "my choice", is a whole different ball of wax. That is the argument. Churches say its a choice and there fore we can be changed cause its a choice.

Those who are gay, lesbian and bi-sexual, its a way of life. Born that way, will die that way.

Now I can go on to debate this, both sides and such. But I wont, don't need to start a feud with anyone nor do I wish to have a lengthy blog talking about who is right and wrong. We are all entitled to our opinions. Except... Well I wont go there.. All I will say is the man that lives in that White House.

I was married to a man for 5 years, not all that bad but not all that earth shattering either. He was a good man, and more then likely still is but since he was some what of a jerk in the ending of the marriage, I will just refer to him being nice in the past tense.
Now I was the bad guy(women in this case) cheated on him with a women, moved out and then moved on. Divorce followed.

The lady that led me astray, went back to men, but me, I knew that I was a lesbian.

Then one thing happened that proved me right. I met the most wonderful, caring, compassionate, generous, sexy, beautiful and strong women I have ever had the honor, delight and pleasure of meeting.

My wife. ( I can say that since we skipped town and got married when Portland was allowing such things)

Between her and her daughter, I doubt in my life I have ever laughed, smiled, or choked on soda, food or air, so much in my life. The joy that loving someone so complete brings tears to my eyes all the time.

I guess this is where I just throw up the one question for those of the doubter of gay lifestyle.
How can God be so mad at people for loving others. How can it be wrong to be with someone that makes you laugh till you cry and make soda come out your nose?

The thing that gets me every day, is that the love I feel for her, is something that I have never felt in my life. I can say without a shadow of a doubt, I love her more every day. She is the balance in my life that I always craved, desired and never thought possible.
That one lucky day on the internet, will forever be the greatest moment of my life. And if that is wrong, then I don't want to know the God you speak of, I just want to know the love I have found, that cherishes me from dawn to dusk, is the one true thing.

Enough seriousness...

I love you Tina with all my heart, and now the world knows it to.